Erin McGee Ferrell
My faith and
understanding of God radically changed when I
became a parent. Everything changed! I'm still
undergoing change with my two, six, and eight
year old children. Pre-parenthood I was a
wonderful Christian. Daily disciplines of Bible
Study, intercessory prayer, fasting, and
"proclaiming the Gospel" assured me that I
exemplified a worthy godly vessel.
When I became a mother – sleep deprived, always
on duty, constantly nursing and hungry,
overweight, and hormone laden – I felt like I
was not serving God in a grandiose capacity.
Struggling to read a Psalm over a hurried
breakfast, knowing the power of prayer but
choosing to zone out at the end of a long day in
front of the television, I know my spiritual
walk is lacking. My struggles are not against
poverty and injustice, but rather my temper, my
impatience, and my self-imposed busy schedule.
The paintings of Mother With Child and
Mother With Child By Window are reflective
of my years nursing. My third and last child is
being weaned. This season of nursing babies is
over. I mourn the loss deeply. The image of God
as nursing mother, nurturing me, cradling me to
God's breast, takes on new meaning – God as
comforter, provider, and bosom. My feelings of
love and empathy have grown beyond what I could
have imagined, as well as my capacity for fear
and anger. The paintings are self-portraits as
well as the image of mothers everywhere
struggling with joy and fear.
Erin McGee Ferrell
email:
Erinmcgeeferrell10@msn.com |
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Mother And Child
Oil on masonite, 2004
4' x 3'
Mother And Child By Window
Oil on masonite, 2004
4' x 3' |