Self-Portrait: Lamentation To Todd
Lamentation To My Son, 1LT Todd William Weaver—
Aching sorrow and grief consume me.
Yet, I know your soul is free, unburdened
and radiant with Eternal Light far
Surpassing anything I can fathom.
I cannot bear knowing I will no longer
See your loving smile or watch your
Quiet, happy disposition across the room.
My heart will always hold sorrow, missing you.
I pray you will continue to touch me
As you have this past month with the
Sound of your voice, the light of your soul, the sense of your
With the knowledge of your Soul, free and bright;
And with the Grace of God I will find
The strength and courage to Honor you--
All that you were and all that you are.
I will preserve your plans and dreams
For your family, nurturing them with
Your memory; and your hopes for the future
your loved ones and for your Nation.
Prayer Comes in Many Forms. In the early weeks after Todd
was killed in Afghanistan, our family discussed how we would
Honor his sacrifice and remember his life. As an artist, I
would paint. Three months later, I began the process of
painting a series of oils about Todd’s life and his death. I
painted to music Todd loved and to spiritual music eight hours
a day, seven days a week. Eighteen months later, 21 paintings
Over time, I came to realize my process of painting was a form
of prayer. God was beckoning me to be a witness to His
Glory. It brought me close to Todd, and to God through the
Holy Spirit. Today, living within the presence of God, The
Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit brings me immense Joy.